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Melancholy Feels:

When the skies are a dreary grey, when the wind carries a bitter bite and the clouds hide the sun’s rays.

When your socks keep your feet toasty, and your sweater is floppy and just the right shade of black.

When that song comes on. The one with the haunting melody, the meaningful lyrics, and the power to bring memories from long ago to mind.

That’s when it washes over you like a thousand waves, drowning you in a feeling so intense that you have no choice but to embrace it.

Your soul loses it’s shine to be replaced by an empty hollow feeling.

You don’t panic. You don’t try to escape this feeling. You sit back, get comfy, and turn up the volume.

The song plays, piercing your soul with every note, every word.

Sunless skies and drab monotone colors surround as you remain lost to the rest of the world and you live within your own.

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To any other individual this would be worrying. They would look deep within your eyes, concern filling their own as they ask, ‘Are you alright? You sound depressed.’

But you are not depressed, no far from it. You are happy with your life living every day with a smile through the good and bad.

‘Then why do you feel so empty and hollow? Why do you listen to songs that make you feel so?”

You don’t know how to describe it. But you feel that you must try. ‘Because sometimes I need to feel empty. It makes me happy. To listen to songs that are powerful enough to make me feel something so strongly.’

This of course won’t make any sense to them as they aren’t like you. They don’t understand that something so odd can make someone…happy.

If a man can use his mouth to sing words from his very soul, use his hands to make beautiful sounds with stringed instruments, and then be brave enough to share the very thoughts that fill his head with the world, then who am I to turn a deaf ear?

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It was once said, “Sad is happy for deep people.” I don’t claim to be a deep thoughtful person, but it’s true.

To feel melancholy when a song plays, to have it bring memories of a happy or sad time that are but parts of the past to your mind.

To listen to songs with lyrics that tug at the heart, that stir up emotions of loneliness and understanding.

To smile but in a strange way because it’s sad, yet you feel happy in a way while listening.

Not many people think sad things can be happy things, but that doesn’t mean they can’t be.

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Blink – Doctor Who (season 3)

An upbeat song about happy things can make someone feel as if the world is caving in.

And a sad song that’s slow and melodic can make them smile and get through the rest of the day.

Not everything that brings this mood upon you is the same for everyone else. We are all different each and everyone of us, but that doesn’t mean we don’t all feel the same things at different times.

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Goner – TØP

p.s. if you want to know what i listen to when I’m feeling melancholy click here for my playlist

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1 thought on “Melancholy Feels:”

  1. Madi If you won’t claim to be a deep thoughtful person, than I will claim it for you because it’s true. beautiful expression Madi. thank you. 💜 Jan

    Dad bless you and keep you.

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